Life's like this...

one fuck up post

It's really been a long time since I've blog. But please don't expect this post to be a summarised update on my life. I've lost interest in blogging about my life. If you are a concerned friend, you will find out about my life no matter what.

Anyway, finally I've got a rude awakening from my friends around me. And I'm starting to lose hold of my fort........

Seriously, I don't think I'm such a KIND person. I'm only kind to those people whom I love and care for. Somehow, I start to feel that my kindness is taken for granted. Thanks to my friends, I finally see myself as a FOOL.

Really... I did all the things willingly, but somehow I don't know why it feels wrong. It ended up making me feel worse. Why? 'Cause I'm not being appreciated, it feels like I'm being used. The more I think about, the more prideless I've become.

*pause for lunch break*

Felt much better after walking around in school and talking to the others. Maybe I've placed my focus too much on one particular thing/person. It becomes so unhealthy, and somehow prevented me from seeing the good in other people.

Anyway, thanks to those who are being cruel to me. I know it's for my own good. Stop me from indulging myself from all the deluded thoughts. I wanna find my real self back. The real Shu Wen is not a deluded and easily manipulated fool. STOP DOING THINGS FOR PEOPLE WHO DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT IS HAPPENING. THE PERSON DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER TO ASK OR SHOW CONCERN EVEN WHEN IT'S DAMN OBVIOUS THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG!!!!

I really want to know what's going on in your mind, but I think there'll never be a good chance to talk about it and I lack of the courage to face it all over again. And most importantly, you can't be bothered about it right? Go ahead and enjoy yourself. From the very beginning till now, I'm just a hopeless fool sticking around you. Perhaps if I die one day, you won't feel a thing too. 'Cause as I've said, YOU JUST CAN'T BE BOTHERED WITH ME.

Don't worry. I'll be happy from now on 'cause I've decided to leave this emotional baggage behind. NO more fuckwittage. After I end this post, I will be the end of all the shit. Just pretend nothing ever happened before. Everything will just be plain and simple. No hate nor love.

I don't really care if you are going to read it or not. 'Cause I know you will not be bothered about this in any ways. What's more, you are busy enjoying life now. Good luck to you man.

Gonna live for myself.

P.S. I love my cruel friends. =)

one fuck up post

0 Comments: