Life's like this...

For someone out there.

Finally, I can take a breather after a horrible week. Had my crime test today, it sucked to the core. Just came back from the acapella practice, my piano-playing sucked to the core also. Never practised for so long and I was so nervous. Haiz.. Nevermind, at least tonight I can sleep with peace, no need to worry what time to wake up for lessons. =)

It's a wonder how I can be so forgiving sometimes. I still can remember the terrible period that you have put me through... Days of crying and confusion, the loneliness I had to endure. Saying I was devasted is an understatement. I remembered feeling bitter, but how exactly I had felt? I can't remember, and I can't even remember what exactly caused such a great divide between us. After such a long period of time, the memories that still etched deeply and dominate my mind are the sweet and happy ones. I still can remember the days when nothing goes wrong and you were always there for me like a guardian angel. Guess it was the only time of my life that I've ever felt so blessed and had so much confidence in myself.

The funny thing was... we were never an item. We were just bonded by this 'brother-sister' thing. Initially, we played by the rules and we knew that we shouldn't let any other feelings develop because of the circumstances then. But in the end, it still went out of track... It was so hard to carry on with the fact that, I would never get any 'official recognition'. Nevertheless, I was still happy that you could shower me with such special care and concern.

After we went into war, it took such a long time to move on and be independent. Many new people had since came into my life, but not one come that close in making me so 'privileged', not even my ex-es (sad to say). So many years have passed, but I have not cleanly forgotten about you. In fact, I still wonder how you are doing in life sometimes. Recently, I felt that there was something missing and incomplete in my life. I feel so unsatisfied about our ending, I feel that it is so undignified. So I decided to make a conscious effort to get in touch with you and the Christina Aguilera's 'Hurt' described how I felt during the period when I tried to contact you.

Now, I've finally contacted you. Happy, I am. Can feel that you were genuinely happy and delighted. Guess you have forgotten the bad past just like what I've done. Talking to you was the same as the past, it just light up my mood. We never run out of conversation topics. Even after not talking and seeing each other so long, we still can carry a conversation without any awkwardness. Maybe this is how really really good friends should be like. Still able to understand each other even after a long separation.

I don't know why exactly I've typed out the whole story about you and me even though you will never get to read it, unless, either you chance upon this or I give you my webbie. I don't know what kind of conclusion to give, but I think being 'good friends forever' will be a fine one. =) This whole episode, make me cherish my friends even more. It's so hard to let your friends go and then search them back. Especially special ones.

For someone out there.

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